Friends

I don't know what has happened lately in my life. For some reason I try to reach out to my friends only to be rejected. I use deoderant and sometimes light perfume so that isn't the problem. I don't understand why people would just drop me and ignore my attempts to keep in touch. 2 years ago I had 15 plus local friends, now, out of that group, I have none. I haven't changed, not to my knowledge. If I have, no one has told me about it.

One of my dear friends, we have known each other for 15 plus years, forgot my birthday (kinda petty I know but I always send her a card on hers, and try to call as well). Then she said she would set up a lunch date. That was in early December. She has time for others, but not for me. I don't know why, may be I am not her type. May be I am a friend from her youth that makes her feel weighted down. Whatever, it really makes me sad because I liked her for who she was. So many others I saw exploit her position, she is still friends with them. I am still waiting for her to call...... I don't think she will.

The latest insult to injury was when I sent out a cute email. One of my friends gave me her address and asked to 'stay in touch' so I did. I don't send out cutesy emails that much (I receive them everyday but I only send out maybe 2 or 3 times a month). She wrote me back "Welcome to my world of being on (my name here)'s e-mail list..." I sent her an email saying hello, asking about her family, giving her brief update, no reply. So much for her 'stay in touch' because she evidently doesn't want to.

Hopefully my philosophy class will help me understand. Guess it just goes to show, I need new friends since the ones I have don't have time for me ........